Friday, February 12, 2010

What is CHD???

I first read this on a fellow heart Mother's blog, Andrea Simmons (thanks!). It is an amazing poem! As heart week comes to an end, I wanted to share it with all of you. Enjoy!

What is a CHD???

You passed me in the shopping mall
(You read my faded tee).
You tapped me on the shoulder,
Then asked, "What's a CHD?"
I could quote terminology,
There's stats that I could give.
But I would rather share with you
A mother's perspective.


What is it like to have a child with a CHD?
It's Lasix, Aspirin, Captopril
It's wondering...Lord what's your will?
It's monitors and oxygen tanks
It's a constant reminder to always give thanks.
It's feeding tubes, calories, needed weight gain
It's the drama of eating...and yes it's insane!
It's the first time I held him, I'd waited so long,

It's knowing that I need to help him grow strong.
It's making a hospital home for awhile
It's seeing my reward in every smile.

It's checking his sats as the feeding pump's beeping
It's knowing that there is just no time for sleeping.
It's caths, x-rays and boo boos to kiss
It's normalacy I sometimes miss.
It's asking do his nails look blue?
It's cringing inside at what he's been through.
It's dozens of call to his pediatrician
She knows me by name, I'm a mom on a mission.
It's winter's homebound and hand sanitizer
It's knowing this journey has made me much wiser.
It's watching him sleeping his breathing is steady.
It's surgery day and I'll never be ready.
It's handing him over, I'm still not prepared,
It's knowing that his heart must be repaired.
It's waiting for news on that long stressful day,
It's praying...it's hoping...that he'll be okay.
It's the wonderful friends with whom I've connected,
It's the bond that we share, it was so unexpected.
It's that long faded scar down my child's small chest,

It's touching it gently and knowing we're blessed.
It's watching him chasing a small butterfly,
It's the moment I realized I've stopped asking why.
It's the snowflakes that fall on a cold winter's day,

They remind me of those who aren't with us today.
It's a brave little boy who loves Thomas the train,
Or a special heart bear or a frog in the rain.
It's the need to remember we're all in this plight,
It's their lives that remind us we still need to fight!
It's in pushing ahead amidst every sorrow,
It is finding the strength to have hope for tomorrow.
And no, we'll never be the same. It's changed our family,
This is what we face each day.
This is...a CHD.

**Written by Stephanie Husted (fellow heart mom)

7 comments:

Heather said...

Such a sweet post Andrea. Thanks for sharing. I love these pictures, it shows how far Kyson has come and all along the way he has had you as his wonderful mother! Love you!

Jamie Pearce said...

What a great post! I LOVED it! It brought tears to my eyes reading it. Kyson is such a blessing and you are an amazing Mother! Love you!

Tiffany Matthews said...

I am sure that poem is so true to all the things that you have felt. You are such an amazing strong person. Your little boys are so cute looking at all the pictures you have of Kyson it is amazing how much he has grown and what he has been able to over come.

Hiatt Family said...

I loved this post and the pictures to go along with it. I know that none of us even realize the journey that your family has been through so far! Kyson is such a special boy...seriously, anyone can take one look at him and know that there is just something about him that is SO unique & good!

Jennifer Larson said...

this was beautiful thanks for sharing. I can't imagine what you and your family went through. I know I worry so much about my kids if they even get a cold.

Velika said...

Beautiful poem. I sat here and read it and cried. I love the pictures you put with it. I just love your little man!

Greg and Heidi said...

Wow, I love that poem. Haven't heard that one yet! Made me tear up. And I loved the pics you put with it! It was great seeing you Saturday!